Polaroid Lightmixer 360!

I woke around 9 am and had breakfast with my family.

After that, I started to work on my project again.

I just can't describe how much I admire Demi, I just want that this presentation is pure perfection.

I found this Polaroid Lightmixer 630 camera, I hope that is still working, well my cousin told me that is almost brand new, well I just have to buy film.

We had good lunch and prepared to go on graves like we do every year on 1st November.

It was just good that it was actually a nice weather.

I drove back home with my cousin.

We had dinner and again we ate chestnuts.

Well my mom then left us and went to see one of her friends. 

We just stayed there around the table and just talked.

About everything.

The last thing I know I was crying, because everything just hit me, from my dad not really being a part of my life since I was born, he was just this shadow, sometimes I really don't know who he is, about my mom being sick, about me staying so strong all these years, well in that point I just broke down crying, ruining my mascara and eyeliner, damn' I was really black around my eyes. Hh.

And now? I'm just on the laptop, watching videos on YouTube, listening to Story of My Life by One Direction, searching for some inspiration and talking with my friends.

Xoxo, It Girl

Admire!

Day went by pretty normal.

I got 4 (85%) in math class. I feel just soooooo proud. hehe #MathNerd.

In the middle of the classes I had my driving lessons which was pretty fun.

When I got home I had lunch and after that I just went on my laptop bored.

So I decided to start doing this "Person I admire" thing for my English class.

I picked Demi Lovato, I don't know why, but I just love her!

After that I watched some tv and read some pages of the book, then again it's Mortal Instruments: City of Bones.

Well, I tried to find next part of the book in my language, but they didn't translate it. What a shame, so I just bought over the internet new part in English - Mortal Instruments: City of Ashes. Can't wait till Tuesday or Wednesday when I will get it! <3

That's all for today!

Xoxo, It Girl

Two Pieces!

We don't know where to go, so I'll just get lost with you

We'll never fall apart, 'cause we fit together right, we fit together right

These dark clouds over me, rain down and roll away

We'll never fall apart, 'cause we fit together like

Two pieces of a broken heart!

- Demi Lovato

I really don't know what to think lately. I'm just confused because I miss him, and I love him with all my heart, but I can't resist my friends company. It's just great to be around him, and I hate myself for that!

I won't say his name or describe him because it's just this one day thing.

He's my friend, and I will see my baby tomorrow. I hope.

Ughhh... I miss him soooo much.

Those rainy and lady days are just so depressing and when I think over I just feel stupid.

People are trying to bring me down with the comments on ask.fm , I won't name it because my boyfriend and friends told me that I'm perfect! So I won't try to really care about them.

And when I read, what my baby said about me I just started to cry, I love him so much!

And my friend is going through the heart break. And I hope he will be fine soon. I just care tooo much about people I love.

Xoxo, It Girl